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Yesterday was my little rain of sunshine’s Birthday!! awww.. she’s already a year old. And well all i gotta say is yesterday was a nice change and it felt good =/
They’re Not Horses They’re Unicorns…
Bayside Bayside Bayside I seriously do not know what i would do without your music… Every mood i’m in no matter what you have a song to describe it to the fullest.
You’re pulling out your teeth
And I’m the Novocaine you pump in your cheek.
That’s why I’m still around,
You’ve got blood running down your chin.
But you suffered peacefully (suffered peacefully)
She was a termite
Eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul
Who needed a home
I was filling a void with you
And I can’t, can’t wait
Till you’ve see see seen
What death and disgust
Have done to me
And I spent three years wishing
For two things,
that one day you’d break
And I’d get to see
How all the choices you’ve made
Would drive you insane
I wish we never met
As angry as I sound
That’s just the way I cover up, the way I feel.
I’ve been that way for years and years
Slave to broken hearts and sex appeal
She was a termite
Eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul
Who needed a home
I was filling a void with you
And I can’t, can’t wait
Till you’ve see see seen
What death and disgust
Have done to me
And I spent three years wishing
For two things,
that one day you’d break
And I’d get to see
How all the choices you’ve made
Would drive you insane
I wish we never met
She was a termite
Eating away at my roots.
I was just a lost soul
Who needed a home
I was filling a void with you
And I can’t, can’t wait
Till you’ve see see seen
What death and disgust
Have done to me
And I spent three years wishing
For two things,
that one day you’d break
And I’d get to see
How all the choices you’ve made
Would drive you insane
I wish we never met
Existing In A Crisis
This song has been strolling around around and around in my head non stop.. ughh and Yes i’m tired of all the bullshit its soo stupid how one day I see all the fucked up part about it and the rest of the days I forget about it. No, thats its i’m tired and over it. I cannot keep thinking about what ifs I cannot be thinking time will tell you. So here I go, that’s it i’m done no more games, no more answers, no more anything we are two people with our lives ahead of us and if I could I would cut you off completely. I can say that I dislike you but i have to like you this is so fucken stupid. This whole song pretty much summarizes my current mood.
I’m so tired of the stupid games you play.
If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?
If I had a gun and shot it at your face,
would you promise not to get out of the way?
If you happen to be able to avoid
My first attack, I’ll put a knife against your throat
and cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control
and you made me do the things I did at night when I got home
But I thought you’d change, but I realize that today, today
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to die painfully.
So painfully…
So this brings us to the backup of my plan.
Maybe I’ll just have to strangle you with my bare hands.
Then you’ll have to adhere to my demands
and occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you are.
But I thought they’d change but things just stayed the same, the same
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to die…
Sometimes content leads, leads to stagnant and stagnant leads to contempt.
Contempt leads to the present.
But I thought you’d change, but things just stayed the same, the same
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to die…
Evelyn, I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to stay away from me.
I know you lied. But I’ll tell you that I’m alive for the first time
and I’m begging you to leave here now. I’m begging you to stay away from me.
Beyond Inspired…
So last week I went to the Where is the band tour, and oh my gahhd it was just amazing. It was Anthony Raneri from Bayside, Chris Connely From Saves The Day, Matt Pryor from Get Up Kids, and Dustin Kensrue from Thrice. All four played individual acoustic sets and they were so awesome. So one of the things that I’m going to do this year is learn to play the acoustic guitar and harmonica. Dustin was playing his new songs and he played the harmonica and it was so amazing. So I’m about to go buy a guitar yeah probably sounds kinda lame but i’m soo determined. lol I’m still thinking about my list of things to do this year. Its actually harder than i thought. ha.
New Concept…
So since I’m pretty online more than anything now a days I figured that I’m going to use my Tumblr as my list. So I don’t know if you know but there’s a show that’s about to start on MTV about 4 guys or something that made a list of 100 things to do before they die and well I’m definitely gonna do it. Maybe not 100 but I’m gonna start at 50 and well we’ll see where the list goes to, but its on because my only New Years resolution is to do as many things on my list as I can and now that my little Hailey is getting bigger it will be much easier to pursue. =D
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Today, no joke has been one of the laziest days of my life. I’ve had a pretty long but amazing weekend. I left to San Francisco on Wednesday morning made a pit stop in Oxnard to drop my lovely with her daddy then off we went to San Francisco, we pretty much saw everything, chilled and went to some bars up there, hit up downtown and that good stuff. All in all it was a really good trip I had a lot of fun. Unfortunately, memories would linger in and out of my head from time to time about the last time that I was in San Francisco, but I’m really trying hard to not let it get the best of me. But on another note, after coming back from San Fran. we stopped in Oxnard again but this time to meet up with Armando. Me and him went to Ventura he took me to a bar called El Rey, it was pretty good but one thing is that he is never allowed to order drinks again, he ordered me a mixed drink that was nothing but vodka wow it was disgusting. We ended up staying the night over there, then headed back to L.A checked out LACMA for a quick second ha ha. Then well we headed to a bar it was basically me, Jisela, Olee, Angelea, Johnathan, and Richard. It was really fun we all just chilled had a couple drinks, talked and all that good stuff. Last night was super random. At first it was just me and Olee. We found out about this drum and bass show in downtown L.A so we were like ok lets try something new and check it out, it was at this random spot but we sure are glad we went. It was nuts the bass was intense, the art was crazy, it went on til 5 in the morning. While we were there Johnathan and Richard met us up so it was the four of us. We stayed at the show until probably 3:30ish maybe a little later, then after when to get some food at Denny’s in Alhambra. It was such a good night. Though I didn’t get home until about 6 in the morning or so but all worth while.
Today totally different story. I’ve pretty much been home relaxing, listening to music but I’ve been having sad moments come and go here and there. I hate it but then again I don’t want to get up and do anything I guess I just rather stay in tonight and enjoy the night warm in my bed and catch up with my rest because I’m going to pick up my beautiful soon so I want to be well rested for her.
